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51st Boys' Brigade
Arel
Ah Wee
Benjamin
Billy
Elgin
Evon
Ezra
Fang Yin
Frances Ess
Genevieve
Geng Tao
Hong Min
Ina
Janice
Jia En
Jia Yi
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Joshua Yeo
Juliet
Kuang Wen
Kwang Yong
Li Jing
Madeline
Margareth
Maruay
Mei Ting
Mellisa
My dA
My Steam
My Youtube
Ni Ta
Old Blog
Older blog
Peck Khee
Qing Lin
Rieka
Rinelle
Rui Xiang
Ryan
Sabryna
Seraphina
Sheryl
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Wei Chun
Win
Win Teng
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Monday, June 30, 2008, 10:54 PM
~FLCL
Right. Before I end the day, I'll like to say a few things.It feels so great! Wow. Ok. How should I phrase this.
I've finally learn to think things through and let go. I've finally let go off my crush! As in, fully!~
I've never felt so free! This sense of uneasiness, sense of guilt, sense of whateverheck, it's totally gone! I can even talk to her without getting all agitated and weird out! It feels so awesome!
One thing's for sure. I made the right choice of not getting into a relationship now. Being a teenager is about FREEDOM! I'm not going to be bounded by chains of responsibilities any time soon. No way. Not now.
And yea, 4A's been quite good too. We learn how to get together more. More and more people are playing Big2. Even the girls, the indo girls are starting to play! It's like, :o
It makes me feel reliefed somehow.
Right! Let's all strive hard to invent workable jetpacks and reach the sky to break its limits!
To Life,
Tommy.
PS I'm working on a new project/invention after my O's. Based on xkcd's "New Pet", I present you, my (incomplete) blueprint!
4:17 PM
~Sores
Good afternoon.
Well now, shall we start?
Saturday was super packed. I was greeted in the morning by my alarm. it was 7.30am. I was suppose to be in Bethesda church by 8.15 for rock climbing with the BB. How delightful. Breakfast, bathe, went online, and off I went to church. It was kinda weird. I was the earliest sec 4 to arrive there, and all my juniors were like sticking to me like glue. The only peace time I had was in the toilet ffs. Then, one of them took out a PSP, and the whole mob decided to stick to him instead. Sigh, I guess some things just never change.
The sec 3s weren't there, so it was really boring. The bus was late, and we had to wait quite a while. Well, the bus soon came. So we went to Christ Church Sec for our rock climbing. Speeding things up, we all climbed the walls, some climbed twice, some climbed 5 times. Only a hand full manage to reach the top though. Soon, everyone was too tired to continue, and we ended up ending the activity bout an hour early.
Then, lunch with a couple of juniors and cj, then I went home, and took a nap. I'm just not used to waking up early, followed by a rigorous activity. Soon after, took a bath, and went to meet the Ess army to practice for the skit in the evening.
We meet up at the hawker centre opp our sch, yaddah yaddah yaddah, time flew, we performed our skit at block 177 in front of the MP, then, sale of shoo mozzie, and blah blah blah we all went home. Sorry just don't feel like dictatin my mind :/
While browsing youtube yesterday, I found this video:
Isn't it cool to see a game in the eyes of a non-gamer? Sometimes, we get used to the immorality of games so much it's bad for us. Seeing the vid made me see why many people hate video games, accusing them of corrupting today's kids. Well, whether or not the kid gets corrupted doesn't depend on the content of the game, but rather, how much the kid is willing to absorb, or how he interprets the contents. Games shouldn't be accused because of this. It's the kids who are at fault.
Anyways, the first preview of Diablo III just came out, and it look really cool and awesome. Though in the midst of development, it looks really promising. It's like calling out to me D: I must have it when it comes out. Of course, when it comes out that is.
Musical's tomorrow! Really looking forward to it (surprisingly). I mean, the last time I went to a school musical was in sec 1. And I heard this year's musical is going to be awesome. And the cast is quite nice too.
And so I bid farewell.
To Life,
Tommy
Thursday, June 26, 2008, 11:49 PM
~Leah
Ok. So it's my birthday. Well, technically, it's going to be over soon in Singapore, but it's still well in the morning in the other side of the globe. So, here's to another 24hours of birthday =)Anyways, nothing much happened, apart from the irregular birthday greetings in the hallways or msn. I've got much more things to do. Tomorrow's Chinese O's Oral. That'll be tough. Apart from that, I'm still camping for a bargain laptop. Also, I'm learning how to overclock. That'll be useful.
There's nothing else much to talk about. Either that or I'm just too lazy/excited to blog about it. Also, musical's next Tue. Looking forward to it.
To Life,
Tommy
Monday, June 23, 2008, 10:08 PM
~Yarr.
As the holidays come to a close, I spend my remaining nights in the depths of rc_overwatch in TF2, burning those poor poor snipers. It felt good.Right, so the holidays are over. I'm actually a tad bit surprised. I've practically wasted my holiday. Didn't do much here and there. But oh what the heck. What's done is done.
14 things on my to-do list now. How long do you reckon I'll take to finish all of em? Depends really.
You know what I hate? People who complain. People who complain, and don't do nothing about it. They just whine on and on about every single blemish in their life. Really, what's the point?
I came up with the steps which shows how much you're living your life. With each step you fulfil, you've lived more than that in the previous step. It is, of course, (almost) entirely false, as it's made up. Let's begin, shall we.
- Experience
- Identify the problem
- Find a solution
- Apply solution
- Improve solution
- Repeat step 4.
- Enjoy your never ending cycle.
- ???
- PROFIT!
To Life,
Tommy
PS My post's are getting crappy. Pardon me.
Saturday, June 21, 2008, 3:04 AM
~Lavish
I reject your reality and substitute my own >:Wow. Last weekend of the holidays. All I can say is, I didn't spend it the best I could, but at least its better than my previous 18 school holidays. You know how the holiday's suppose to be the time you finish up your work, clear your to-do list and everything.
Screw it!
I've just added 3 more things to my to-do list. I swear, I've no idea how long I'll take to finish that goddam list.
I'm tired. I'll go to sleep. I think I'll try something new soon.
Hmm... mmm...
To Life,
Tommy
PS My Chinese O's Oral is on the same day as my birthday! Hoorah! (crap)
Wednesday, June 18, 2008, 3:01 AM
~Chick Flick
It's late. Real late. And she's pissed >:Just finish watching It's a boy girl thing. What can I say. It's really a good film. I'm not a fan of chick flicks but that's a really good film. It has a good amount of humour, and it's not those jokes or pranks. It's more of a subtle touch to the heart that makes you smile, and gradually, laugh. They don't go for the straight mile cloud 9 euphoria. And that gradual increment of mood and subtleness, makes you go warm inside by the end of the movie. It's really a good movie to watch, whether with friends, or with your loved ones.
Right. It's 3am. I should really get to sleep. Firefox is still down. Really, did they get DDoS? Or was it because they were unprepared for half of the world to download their new browser. If you've no idea what I'm talking about, this may seem interesting.
To Life,
Tommy
Tuesday, June 17, 2008, 12:22 PM
~Home
You know what I hate about Singapore? I can never find a place without a roof and 4 barriers around me. Even if I did, it'll always be taken away from me.So today, I went to the carpark roof top again. It's a great place. The sky's blue, with a little bit of cloud drifting. The wind is light and cool. The view was magnificent. It's a great place. It was the 3rd or 4th time I've been there, and it's a really great place to relax. I was just there, admiring the view, finishing up a couple of drawings so I can colour it by tonight. It's one of the best place to do it.
I was almost done, really. Then, the guards came in and forced me to come down. Apparently, someone saw me on the rooftop and thought I was going to jump. Like, hello, I'm sitting down in the middle of the god dam thing with a paper and pencil. How the hell d'you think I was going to jump?
So I was chased down again and was voided access to the rooftop again.
It sucks. Really.
It's practically one of the best place I've found in Singapore. And again, it's been taken away from me. I'm really pissed off by that. Really, I am. Call me crazy to love hanging out at rooftops without any barriers, by it's really a wonderful place. Especially when you see the view.
Now, I've got to find another place to relax, because the stairwell ain't gna cut it. Who the hell can relax in a cramp, dark, humid corridor? My next target: the rooftop (of the condo tower buildings). It's tall enough so that no one can see me. It's high enough to have a better view. And I hope it's relaxing enough. Now, all I need is a lockpick to pick the goddam Viro lock.
On the other news, you have no idea how accurate palm reading is. I myself am really surprised about the accuracy of the results. However, it could just be another Forer effect. Well, at least it's good for my own insights, right?
To Life,
Tommy
Saturday, June 14, 2008, 1:53 AM
~Disorientation
Dang what am I doing awake?My search for a new laptop has yielded results. I'm proud to say I've found laptops cheaper than Dell's M1730. Specs can be said to be better, I suppose. The Sager NP9262 has caught my eye with it's price. I'm glad to hear that it has free shipping to overseas (how good can it get?), but the payment method is a bit limited. I'll try to get it from a second hand dealer though, but it's unlikely for them to have free worldwide shipping.
Pushing that aside, I should really stop wasting my time. My homework's piling up. Heymaths isn't giving me any break. The Ess Army is giving its last push this monday, where we'll rush our reports and finish up our board. I hate last minute work, but what am I saying? I've been doing last minute work since ever.
As one item is taken off my to-do list, another one is taken in. I really hate this, sometimes, I wonder, when will I ever finish everything on that list. Then, I realise, the only reason the list is never ending is because I'm letting things to be put up. I can just shirk off everything on it, burn the list down, and go take a jog down Bishan Park. But, is it really worth it?
In my current situation, it certainly is!
To Life,
Tommy
Friday, June 13, 2008, 3:26 AM
~Groove
Well. After staring at self portrait - magnetic.pink for about 15 or so minutes, I decided to draw it, even though I've got like 4 other sketches on my to-do list.The results were slightly off the portrait. But I like it. It's been a couple of months since I touched my trusty HB pencil, and yea, I've learn quite abit from this sketch, like the fact I have trouble drawing the left eye and the right boob. Yea, I know, it's weird.
Today wasn't all that bad. I was stuck at home, couldn't do anything. So I decided to download the new Harold and Kumar movie, since I heard it's pretty good. So it took a couple of hours. Or more. Way more. Anyway, I went for chinese tuition and left the comp on. It's been awhile since I've done that. When I got home, which was after 4 hours, the download's still not done. So, I decided to watch afew past episodes of House MD. Brings back old memories, which was ironical, since the episode I watch was about a guy who got his memory shocked away because of a misdiagnosis.
Anyway, the download finally complete, and I watched the telesync. I've got to say, that is one of the funniest movie I've seen. Really, it reminds me of Superbad. Probably because the actors aren't acting about some really surreal situations. Ok, sure, not many people would bring weed to a plane, or crash land to Bush's private estate, but still, how natural can you get when every sentence the actor spew has the word "fuck" in it? I mean, irl, you would do that if you were ask to have a cockmeat sandwich. So yea, it's really a nice movie, you should go watch it if you're above 18/have access to torrents.
So I've began laptop searching again, and I've got my eye on the Dell's M1730. But SHIT it's like 6k for some decent hardware inside. And I've heard some pretty bad feedback about it to (seeing how it's Dell and everything). But I just can't find a decent SLI compatible laptop anywhere else. I'm not going to import because the shipping fees are fuck high, especially with oil prices rising, delivery's going to cost a bomb. I guess I can get afew of my friends from the state to help chip in a little bit for the delivery. I'm sure Mark won't mind, right? =)
I'll like to end this post with this: Que Sera Sera. Whatever will be, will be.
Whatever's done is done. You can't change it, you can only live with it. You can either live in hate and harbring thoughts of revenge, or you can look at it at a different light and learn from your mistake. Or do both. No one's stopping you.
To Life,
Tommy
Wednesday, June 11, 2008, 12:32 AM
~Pictography
Sometimes, I spend hours admiring the pieces of photograph in dA. Some are just so gorgeous. Some are really picture perfect. Some are indescripable. Here are afew of my favourites. Click their thumbnail for a bigger view on dA.
Elevator Music by girltripped
This is one of the first few photography portraits I saw when I first came into the dA. I love how the shot was taken. It gives the girl an aura of superiority over you. The contrast between herself and the mood/atmosphere of the room also highlights one of the many beauty of this portrait. The way that they darken the edges makes the girl the centre of attention. A striking portrait and one of the first few in my favourites folder.
Bus Stop. by girltripped
It is impossible not to fall in love with this picture. It's like ohmagawd! Again, girltripped makes use of contrasting objects very very well. The slight sepia tone also gives the picture a really great mood. Somewhat peaceful, which also complements the ballerina.
Red Dare by girltripped
Striking. That's the first word that came into my mind when I saw this. The amount of red in the picture almost look overflowing. Almost. But not yet. The hood reminds me of little red riding hood. Her face is almost emotionless, but there's a tinge of worry in her eyes. Perhaps she knows the big bad wolf is after her? A fabulous picture taken again by the brilliant girltripped.
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Sef Portrait - Magnetic.Pink by whorer-movie
Due to copyright issues, I cannot post the picture here. But you have to see this photograph. It's oh-oh-so stunning. The wealth of colours, especially pink, makes the portrait so loud, but the emotionless face says otherwise. Usually, pink is a really bad choice of colour for almost anything, but here, the colour is well used. Not too much, not too little. It's like... perfect.
Love Will Shoot You Down by slumberdoll
When they saw a picture says a thousand words, they're right. A whole story can be forged just by looking at this photograph. It says so much, but its eluded with so many questions. Are they lovers or co workers? Are they angry or are they annoyed? Is he really gay? Well, the intepretations are for you to decide. The effective use of a white screen prevents overcrowding of the picture, and makes it look simple. It also shifts the attention to the two person. Of course, the ever so overused headphones are there to top it all off, which is fine, by my standards.
Fallen Dreams by littlemewhatever
Ambience really speaks in this one. Her face looks so peaceful. The slight sepia tone also gives the picture a cosy feeling. Her hair looks so soft it makes it look so comfortable for her to lie on it. An emotive portrait, I'll say. She looks so tranquil and undisturbed. Just looking at it makes you feel bad for disturbing her.
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Saturday, June 7, 2008, 12:30 PM
~Polar
Good afternoon.Beautiful day. Rain's drizzling, but not heavy enough to make lots of noise. Going to go out later to sell some Shoo Mozzie, will talk about that later. More importantly, about a week ago, I left for Vietnam. So yea, that'll most probably make up the most of today's post.
Day 1
The day started out pretty nice. Most of my stuff are already packed. All that's left is my lappy. I woke up, washed my face a little, turned my lappy on, and grab some bread for breakfast while waiting for it to startup.
Not many people were online, really. A couple of my gaming buds were still playing TF2, so they weren't really that free to chat. Vns and Mark greeted me simultaneously. I swear they're in cahoots to play some kind of mind games with me. It almost did, seeing how it's 7am in the morning and I was barely opening my eyes and my speakers were on full blast.
Anyways, after that's over, I took a bath, slipped into some jeans and the GP shirt. Wrapped up my lappy, slid it into the Cheesy Disco (lol), and off I went to YCK MRT to meet up with the rest.
Walking with an oversized slingbag and an underweighted camping bag, I waddled my way to the MRT station. Along the way, I met yq, then we slowly walk to the MRT station. We were relatively early, and only vns was there. So we waited for the rest, and soon, win and jessica came. As we await for cj and emanto, a maxi cab under the name of Mr Teo arrived. Bewildered, we suspect that Mr Teo could be cj. Well, it was him. He soon arrived, complaining that the cab was too early.
Soon, we left for the airport. Terminal 2. The ride was awfully quiet. The girl camwhored abit. I popped my peripherals in, and await the back and white stripes of the CTE.
The radio tower came into view, and soon, so did terminal 2. We boarded off the cab, grab a couple of trollies and sat down on some seats just in front of Counter 10. And so we await the arrival of the rest.
Me and yq went to find a money changer to change SGD to VND, while some of the girls and win went to find the happy room (toilet). On the way, we met lijing, and pointed out the direct to where we've settled.
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Wait. Why am I dictating all these?
You know what? If you want to know of all the things that happened in Vietnam, just go to this blog here.
If there's one thing I've noticed in Vietnam, is that it's a hybrid of Jakarta and Singapore, and a tinge of France. It's wide pavement and dusty atmosphere brings the nostalgic feeling of Jakarta back into my head, but the clean airport and VSIP made it impossible to distinguish it from Singapore. It's old architecture of France remains as the Notre Dame Chapel and the post office. It's really beautiful.
The trip have been really awesome too. With 13 4A students, it's really quite an awesome experience. It really bonds us closer together as a (portion of the) class. It also made me some new friends, and also shed me some light of truth.
Normal Acads aren't dumb (sorry if I offended anyone. Really, I am). Normal acad is actually as equally intelligent, if not more, than Exp. They're just more relaxed, and this gives them an advantage. Look at us 4A. Most of us mug like fuck when it comes to exams, and when it's not, we mug harder. It's bullshit. Study smart not study smart. The NA have 5 years to finish their O's, and we have 4. Well. At least not all Exp are dumbfucks like 4A (sorry).
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And then there's the ruckus over at my tagboard. It's over now, I'm glad. I still can't believe Igot a bit hot headed there. Could've ended the conflict sooner, and I should've too. But I really like to prove my point. I guess, I treat friendship a little bit too serious. Loyalty, trust. All of these can be so easily comprimised. At the tick of the clock. At the silence of the wind. At the blink of an eye. Friendship can be so easily broken. It's not my first time I've screwed up a friendship. Sometimes, I've got no choice. Others, I do have a choice, but made the wrong one. It really pains me. But, what's the use of crying over spilled milk? We have to move on. We got to.
Then down at The Ess Army blog, there's also another conflict. What do I've got to do? The last time I solved conflicts was to bring both parties down to talk. But what if one of the party is me? I should really try to defend my viewpoint, but I know, escalating the intensity of the conflict will just make it worst. Past experiences taught me a lot about all these. Well. I guess if you want to find out, you just got to go down to The Ess Army blog to see the outcome of this conflict. I too, would like to see a good outcome.
When a conflict arise. It's best to take the first step back. By doing so, you allow the opposing party to prove one of his or her point. With that, you can use that point to rebutt against him or her, take back the ground you've lost, and use that as a momentum to push him or her back. Never use strong emotional words, and always try to stay neutral to your point, never use your emotion to back it up. Your emotions can and will be used against you when the opportunity arises.
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So yesterday, some peeps from 4A went to watch Kung Fu Panda. It was eerily awkward at times, and yea, I've got to agree, 4A has a long way to go from being a united class. But we're still working on it. We cann't be 100% united, I can tell you that. Even 90% is hard. But, it's possible. I, no, we still have half a year left. It's not too late. I know it isn't.
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And today, hmm. Went to anchorpoint to sell Shoo! Mozzie. Was really REALLY boring. I mean, seriously. I was just camping at the escalator and asking to every single vulnerable auntie "Would you be interested in an 100% organic and all natural insect repellant and moisturiser?" 27.34% of the time, they will say no, 44.98% of the time, they will raise their palm and walk away, 12.53% of the time, they will smile and walk away, 12.11% of the time, they will ignore me, and 3.04% of the time, they will be interested. Wow.
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You know, I've found an interesting theory:
Money is the cause of conflict. More specifically, monetary gain has been the root cause of conflict. Contradicting ideology is also another cause, but really, money is more of concern. Anyways, if everyone were to be oh-so giving and and understandable, there won't be a need for money. There won't be conflict, and there will be world peace. But wait. The human mind has a build in thought called greed and jealousy, right? Where would it be placed in this oh so perfect world?
That's the whole point. People will begin inventing monetary trade and units, and this brings about all the problems of money again. And since humans have this mindset of world peace too, they solve ideological differences by violence, both physical and economical, since a different thinking would bring about a rebellion. Ironic, eh?
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Then, my sis introduced this website to me. Shit's so awesome I've forgotten about gaming totally. Wow!
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Ok, so today, while going to anchorpoint, on the MRT. I saw this old man who was sweating in the train. From that, I deduce he has HBP, had a heart attack before or has cancer, and will die within 3 to 5 years. FUCK! This is what happens when you watch too much House.
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And recently, my sister commented that I've become optimistic. So, I shall reply her now.
lalalalalalala. (dances around).
I am NOT optimistic. I've just looked at the world at a different light. A more yellow shade of light.
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Oh ma gawd is this fucking 4000 words yet? Sigh, 1,435 words.
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Then, I realise, the number of words doesn't really determine the quality of a post. And with that, I stop.
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Not.
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Dicen que no conocio el amor
dicen que tiene maldito el corazon,
que no tiene salvacion.
Dicen que es una mujer fatal
un paso en falso y te vuelve de cristal...
Como la fuerza de un huracan
y el apetito que tiene cualquier predador animal
Con la ponzoña de un alacran
Con la inocencia de un niño y
bajo la mano un puñal
Mira en sus ojos, y juega su juego y veras...
Eres veneno Vil ...
eres veneno vil....
Dicen que es como una maquina
Nada se salva de una hembra tan voraz,
dicen que es como una vibora
beso tras beso propaga su maldad
Mira en sus ojos y juega su juego y veras.
Eres veneno Vil ...
eres veneno vil...
Dicen que no conocio el amor
Dicen que tiene maldito el corazón
Dicen que es una mujer fatal
un paso en falso y te vuelve de cristal...
Una catastrofe natural
tiene los ojos de fuego y corazon de metal
Mira en sus ojos y juega su juego y veras...
Eres veneno vil....
eres veneno vil...
Eres veneno vil
y tu mordida es fatal,
tras ese diente animal,
eres veneno vil,
eres veneno vil... d
e mordedura fatal
tras tu sonrisa animal.. eres veneno vil....